Re your comment – and I quote from your letter – “like you I ended up with an Italian surname”……….. yeah !….. once upon a time maybe, I had one – but once the Ite was gone, I ditched the name as well !! why keep his name if the guy was missing ?……. before the Ite name Dellocca, a previous ‘ once upon a time’ I was a McGillivray. Took me over a year to get used to using that name! For starters, YOU try spelling THAT name, in it’s entirety, daily, to Clerks behind the counters, who, each time you bought something, the docket was hand-written showing the purchasers name ( am I honestly that old ?! do I go THAT far back ? they were actually handwriting sales dockets !) anyway – that’s what they used do…….. So when ‘hubbly-bubbley’ took his Northwards flight, new Canadian wife in tow – why would I keep HIS name and be weighted down with McGILLIVRAY forever ? – the marriage experience was heavy enough thank you ! –
and in the second instance, the name ‘Dellocca’ meant ‘Of the Goose’ – which is ‘Van de Gaans’ !! – I did’nt want that either…….. I mean it was’nt as though I was ditching ‘da Vinci, Gucci, or Armani ‘ now was it ?……….
So in the end, decided to have a ‘make-over’ and went the ‘whole hog’ – changed the ruddy lot, christian and sur…. by ‘Deed of Poll.’ I lay claim to the double-barrell surname of my Grandfather I (or perhaps even my Great-grandfather ) ‘Waylett-Coxen’ and changed the name Noreen (because really, Noreen, Doreen, Maureen, Corine – ‘boreeng’ !!) to Alexis – hence I am today known as Alexis Waylett-Coxen. Toyed with keeping my original second name, Emray, a mixture of Emelia and Rachel from my two grandmothers ( one German, one Scots.). But to sign, let alone say, ‘ Alexis Emray Waylett-Coxen’ had a cadre of ‘diddledy-diddledy-diddledy-dah’ to it – and remined me of the Voortrekkers ‘Jakobus, Stefanus, Gerhardus, Hendrikus, Werklikheid, Heerlikheid Van der Westhuizen’ !! – kinda like same never-ending story ! besides, you run out of oxygen saying your name……
Thinking back though, there had been a bit of outside nudge for going the ‘Deed of Poll’ route. I’d run into a Numerologist in a Hotel Foyer in Cape Town, who’d done an analysis of the then name Noreen Emray Dellocca – and he’d said that my name was in effect “snarling up my energies” – working against me !!
“Was that why I felt my totem was a dung-beetle” ? and at that, only ever managing to collect itsy-bitsy ‘sheep-droppings’ instead of full-blown ‘cow-patties’ let alone an occassional ‘elephant whopper’? I needed to make some ‘moolah’ – all the theatrics in my life to this point, had been pickings !!
He gave me the assurance that if I changed my name my energies would change and I would start a whole new cycle in life !! (and they say woman are gullible – really ? ) ( well I guess, sort of ……. O.K. – maybe at 40, yes – but not at 70 !!) At the time, I had so much wanted to ease the lot of my marginal life-style.
After the forty day ‘Deed of Poll’ process (of note) the anticipated ‘fame and fortune’ of the name-change, initially served me a curved-ball with a measure of ‘notoriety’ instead. ( And I must mention, I even changed in order that new people would meet me as…. Uno Hoo.) But no sooner was I insisting on being called ‘Alexis’, than ‘The Bold and the Beautiful’ hit the S.A. screens, starring ‘SUPER-BITCH’ (Joan Collins) as ALEXIS Carrington !! No two ways about it – I was stuck with it – FOR YEARS……….. And often had to endure from people, asides such as ‘hope you’re not like Alexis Carrington and this deal is legit ?! – or will go thru’ – or I won’t be crooked’ – always followed by a conspiratorial winkety-wink and a huh-huh-huh chuckle………. ( I can tell you, the thought of ‘having the name, I should have the game’ on occassions did flit across my screen.)
In the end, I ‘ fell between two stools’ in a way. My old friends and especially family members, simply battled too long and too hard to make the switch (as you and Mal can attest to,a whole 30 yrs later ! ) and the new friends calling me Alexis sounded odd at some level. The friendships did’nt seem to run as deep……
A niece teasingly used to ‘holler’out in Shopping Centres, or when calling me for meals ‘TANNIE LEXXXUUUUSSS’ !!
One friend simply nick-named me ‘Norexus’ (mixing Noreen/Alexis) which almost eclipsed the new name Alexis !!
A lot of people called me ‘Lexi’ which made me recoil as tho’ touching a nerve !
In an odd way, I don’t identify with either name anymore ……. when it comes to signing letters – especially to old friends and family members, I tend to simply sign off as ‘ME’…………
If I were to have a Tomb-Stone one day – (which I’m not going to! they’re too expensive… but IF I were to…..) for the benefit of the Ressurecting Angels, a sort of “X marks the spot of Two” – it will have to read ” To Whom It May Concern – as well as Avoid Confusion – ‘Here lies Noreen Emray Coxen – born 6/12/1939 and jointly and severaly Alexis Waylett-Coxen born sometime early 1979 – PLEASE NOTE – SAME PERSON. “
I mean, imagine if only half of me was ressurected ??
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